Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Y Goodbye adolescent years, and hello adulthood! :D
Labels: Birthday, Inner Intentions, My Zhu Tao
happy 21st birthday to ME! :D
heh, 21st. i've got the KEY to everything. especially, to your heart. :)
had a really simple yet sweet advanced celebration with CY earlier on. just nice he had nights out today! hahaha. dear, i really feel it now. :) had a really nice long chat with him too, but he's still ever so cheeky. haha! thank you, still, for being my listener 24/7. there are many things which i can't find the right words to express, so be the wormie in my tummy, and i'm sure you'll know it one day. i love you, still. :)
***
it's like another milestone of my life; the golden year and all that stuffs. every year has been a rollercoaster ride for me. with achievements and mistakes made in my life. from these, i learnt alot about life.
in one of my previous posts, i mentioned that i hated changes. i still do. but right now, i feel i needed a change right now. not the sort of bigbig change, but just... a change. probably, to grow up a little? there are many things which my old ways of thinking won't get me through. i need to think like an adult now.
and for my first step of a-change, i'm thinking of moving my blog!
hmmmmmm. shall start working on the layout or something.
i want to bring my life, career, relationship and wealth to a better next level!
:D :D
and after the 21st, i doubt i'll be looking forward to birthdays anymore. old. haha!
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Y You've got magic inside your fingertips
with all the upcoming events (colleague's wedding, birthday preparation, NYE, etc) over this coming weekend, i reckon i'd be busy over the weekend, hence i'll probably won't have time to do my "last" entry of the year. this could be the last. shrugs* Labels: Inner Intentions, My Zhu Tao, Nostalgic
and so, the year is coming to an end..
what have i done throughout the entire year 2007? what have i achieved? what have i learnt? what lessons were i taught? what have i gained and lost? what have i found and gave away? of all the things i did or did not do, what have made me think i made the right choice? what left me with regrets?
the answers to these questions - endless of them. it has been a great year. at least it is, right now. no doubt i made a mistake of two in between, but all in all, it was a good lesson learnt. 2007 was indeed an eventful year, which many major events of my life took place. during first quarter of the year, i was at my final lap in Ngee Ann Poly doing my FYP. i graduated with a Diploma and started work in second quarter of the year. and during that final half, i met the love of my life (let's just hope he is. haha.). :)
and so, the 2008 resolutions? i'll make them short and simple. 4 will do. :)
1) STOP being a big time procrastinator.
2) get my class 3 license!
3) learn to whip up few dishes, and baking as well. in a nutshell, learn to COOK!
4) to have my family, CY, and all my great friends by my side. to love and care for them unconditionally.
i'm blessed. i just hope it stays this way. forever.
and i just want to countdown to the new year... with you. :)
***
on a side note, it was CY's night off earlier on, so i went to meet him at TM (li'e, in the end i went there still). haha! buggy joined us too, and so the 3 of us hanged out together in TM. roaming around the malls aimlessly, hitting machine in the arcade, eating and shopping. till they're suppose to book in, then i head back home. though it was a plain 3 and half hours, it was enough. teeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D
so excited about my birthday party. are you guys feeling excited for me too? :D:D
anywhooos. hope 2008 will be smooth-sailing for all of you out there!
Happy New Year (in advance)!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Y Turmoil
just got back from my dear girl's grandma's wake. feeling kinda mixed up right now. although she seems okay now, but i'm sure deep within her, she's really shattered, as she's really close to her grandma. sigh. felt really upset upon hearing about entire incident earlier on. it makes me realise that unexpected things do happen all the time. life is really short. cherish the ones you love before it's too late. spend everyday like it's your last. really.. Labels: Inner Intentions
take care, girl. :)
***
A tall slim, cool and quiet woman. Once she is mad she can be very fierce. She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, she will not comments or criticize but she will completely ignore that person. She hate plastic and an artificial flower because it make her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flower and it's scent. She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too. She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line. Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like loosing face. She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter. She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop. She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you", because she will do what she wants to do only. She is a neat and tidy person. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date. She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you lose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do. She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappointed. She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in "Luck". If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be please. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after".
that's an extract from an article about Capricorn women which i've think it's pretty true. i don't usually believe in horoscope, except for this particular one. that is why i've kept this entire folder in my laptop all these while.
why the sudden excerpt? you may wonder. it's because of someone. i don't know how. i don't know why. maybe it's just a prank, but i don't find it funny at all. maybe first try i'll laugh it off with you, but 2nd time onwards, i don't feel like laughing at all. not at all. not one bit. especially tonight. after attending a wake, when i'm still feeling pretty low. especially when you're so far from me, whereby i can't run to you and prove to you anything. i can't swear to you anymore things, because the more i try to explain, the more it defeats the purpose. and promises are meant to be broken. i hate promises, that is why i seldom give promises, unless i really meant it. and i don't like the way you use my weakest point to 'attack' me. one day, you'll realise my genuine sincerity in this relationship, realise who i really am and what i'm really am. i'm sure you will, if you use your heart.
i realise, blog isn't reliable anymore. it's just an outlet for me to "express", but not entirely. the only ONE person i want to talk to right now is farfar away in lalaland. i miss you. i really do. even though i'm feeling 101% down in the lumps after getting your last message, but i still wish i can talk to you right now.
will telling you much you meant to me here, will telling you how much i love you all the time, makes you think i'm just playing with words? or, silence is golden afterall?
it's gonna be a sleepless night tonight.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Y Obscurities.
there are so many decisions to make many points of time in your life. whether or not you know what you want your life to be, looking to the future can be overwhelming. work, school or both take up so much time and energy that it seems like there’s little left over for fun and relaxation. the future may not look as exciting as it once did, and it may even look a little overwhelming at times. the freedom that comes with adulthood also comes with a lot of responsibility. and i mean, alot. there are even more demands on your time, and people treat you like a child in some ways, but expect you to act like an adult in others. all you can do is your best. follow your heart and use your common sense. most of all, believe in yourself and in your dreams. you will likely have to make some sacrifices and work hard for a while, but dreams are worth the effort. the choices you make and the way you live you life now will determine what your future will be. every day is precious, each moment unique. learn to enjoy and appreciate the beauty and the people around you. make time to enjoy yourself, but work hard, too. you’ll find that the present and the future can be all you could ever hope for. :) Labels: Inner Intentions, random
thank you, dear, for standing by me through this. even though sometimes what you said makes me a lil upset, but remember, 我没有变 hoh!!! :P sorry to make you feel tired and sleepy along with me these days. lub you, more k. ~ YY
just some updates. i'm giving up my TP re-test for a course my company's sending me to. i've no confidence in passing my TP anyway, as i've not went for a single practice since 1st Oct. instead of wasting $120 on insurance, i'd rather waste the $25 (or so) of the registration i paid earlier. i've decided to source for a new instructor whose base is at YCK instead of UBI and re-book a TP test date. probably gonna try dong's instructor. :) this is a decision i made after consulting my folks. i hope i'm doing the right thing.
i'm totally drained right now. 1 week odd to go. or rather, 17months to go. i'll press on, no matter what. :)
anyone up for some baking lessons? :x
REMINDER: this again. :P
*****
alright, as promised to Wei Liang (MSL), here's a little advertisement space i'll give for your new site. together with his friends, they set this up and do some marketing sales online. it loosk pretty neat and the products they sell varies. please do visit http://www.anyhowbuy.blogspot.com/ and support my friend. alternatively, check out my blogroll on the right navigation and give the site a visit or two every now and then to check for their new updates.
请多多支持! :D
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Y Changes. Escape. Perfectness.
changes are inevitable. for the good or bad, it's parts and parcel of life. but why do i hate changes so much? so much so that i'm escaping, escaping from the facade reality. witnessed and listened to a couple of incidents today, which made me stopped for a second and pondered, "what's this world becoming to??" Labels: Inner Intentions
sigh. nothing and nobody is perfect. the world's so unfair! so very unfair! we just have to learn how to accept the imperfectness in life, no? i don't want the change! i don't need the change! i just want a really simple life. guess i'm just a lil too comfortable in my comfort zone.
sigh. in case you guys are wondering, this has nothing to do with my relationship. =] i'm just feeling a little low tonight. humour me please.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Y Words can be only be said, only time can prove our love...
everyone has a past. the past is what shapes who we are today. i used to hate my past, and had wanted to eradicate each and every part of my past from my memory. and as i grow Labels: Inner Intentions, My Zhu Tao
oldermore matured, i learnt to embrace my life the way it is, accept it as what it was, is and will be. i learnt to love myself, before moving on to love another. love who he was, is and will be.
i may be gullible at times, but 'cause of all the let down in lfe, i grew up and emerged to be a stronger person i am today. i won't deny that i am rather disturbed right now, but i chose to think things in the other way. it takes 2 hands to clap, and there's 2 sides to a coin. promises can be made. promises are just words, and only time can prove them right for me to be totally convinced. we can promise to love for a lifetime, to never leave each other, but all these, only time can prove it to us. when 2's deeply in love, everything can be said out as easy as flipping a coin, but if we weren't meant to be and that time gonna prove us wrong, we sure gonna go on our separate ways too, no?
there are many things which we can't alter. fate and destiny has laid everything out for us. we can't change the past, but we can change ourselves to improve to be a better person compared to the past. and so, i'm gonna live like there's no tomorrow, love like i've never being hurt before. i'll cherish the times we have together, cherish and love you like i'll always do. i won't promise you forever, but i can assure you that i will never ever lie to you. i love you, CY! :)
and thanks to froggie's help and her feedbacks. i'm feeling so much better right now. :)
sometimes i think i'm pretty fortunate to have great friends around me, all the time. they're there for me almost 24/7, loves me, dotes me, laughs with me, cries with me, looks out for me, be friends with me and whathaveyou. through the years, i'm glad to say, you guys have stuck by me and you guys have my words that i'll stick by you all the way too!
on a lighter note, my brother just donated and installed for me his Microsoft Livecam. and now i'm gonna start webcaming with my family and friends! teehee. and i really really can't wait for CY to be back from Tekong on monday, so i can call him and tell him about everything! i just hope my left eye will stop twitching right now, because it kinda makes me worried.
oh btw, i think i'm really a gadget noob (as quoted by my bro), as i don't bloody know how to charge CY's PSP, even i've the USB charger with me. haha! right, off to snooze. i've promised to sleep early, and this is one promise i think i can keep. :)
nights loves. :)
p.s: happy 21st, larling-bestfriend-chou-da-bian!!!! =D 3 more months to my 21st. haha! loveudeepdeep. ;)
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Y Sick and tired, yet contented...
this week seems to be passing by so slowly. i feel so lethargic all day, and i'm getting sick of work. sick and tired of all the shits i'm facing sometimes. i need to stand up for myself, and not be over dependent on others. it's time i learn something right now. i can't imagine life without my favourite girl at work in future. i hope it'll still be bearable though. sigh.. Labels: Inner Intentions, My Zhu Tao
on a lighter note, i'm really glad to have CY by my side. he's ever so attentive, supportive and nice to me. i quote zhi yong, "as sweet as breadtalk". haha! love it when he's paying attention to what i'm whining all the time. hee. i'm looking forward to this weekend, when we gonna have some fun together, before his field camp next week. :( ngor ai lei, zhu tao. :) and also, i'm really thankful to what my parents did. damn, i think i'm pretty fortunate right now.
how i wish all these will never be taken away from me.....
p.s: i found out today that, it's not just CY, buggy and wei liang being in the same camp. danny is with them too! damn.. singapore's really small.
Friday, October 05, 2007
Y You have stolen my heart....
a good relationship isn't a game you play or an ego trip you take. it is about love and two people. loving someone can give us the greatest joy we can ever know and it can hurt more than we can believe too. Labels: Inner Intentions
loving someone means you should be ready to experience heartache and happiness at the same time. that's the reward and that's also the risk. unless we are willing to experience it, we will never really know what it's like to love and be loved.
loving someone takes efforts. we have to be able to communicate with each other. nobody can read anyone else's mind. we always presume that our partner knows what we think and feel. maybe in time we might be able to predict or sense each other's thoughts but it's never perfect and takes time to develop.
getting the chance to love and be loved by someone is blessed.
respect your significant other for who he/she is, and not what you want him/her to be. everyone is pretty and special in his/her own special way. no one is perfect. it is true love which closes the gap of imperfectness to form a smooth surface of acceptance for each other. true love sees and accepts a person for who he/she is. it is also true love which makes a person change for the better.
a relationship needs commitments too. what is love without commitments from each other anyway?
it's like principles and values. everyone has them but they only mean as much as we are willing to stand for them. the same goes for our commitments to relationships, and the person we love.
every day everywhere, people fall in love ... but just how many of these relationships are self-sacrificing love, and not just relationships which are formed only for the intense feeling of falling in love?
if a person says he/she loves you, he/she means that he/she loves you unconditionally for who you are now, who you were in the past and who you might be in the future. when he/she says he/she loves you and really means it, you have to ask yourself if you love him/her too or if you're in love with the idea of being in love.
it is very hard to see the difference through logical thinking. let your heart guide you. (:
think about it...
***
have a rocking weekend loves!
xoxo.
Friday, September 14, 2007
Y Fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars.
on my twelveth birthday, i asked myself "why ain't i a grown up yet?" then, on my sixteen birthday, i couldn't wait to enter into the later part of my adolescent years (though part of me was quite relunctant to leave my secondary school days behind). now, i wish that i could turn back time and start everything from scratch again. i want to make things right, but i don't know how to. Labels: Inner Intentions
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Y Reality's replaced you with the biggest emptiness...
upon reading one of yun's recent blog entries, i have this strong and weird gush of emotion. i haven't been blogging alot about my heart affairs, but tonight, i decided to share and let things go, once and for all. Labels: Inner Intentions
as quoted,
我突然满脑子都是你的影子。你的笑声，你的声音，你的微笑，你的头发，你身上的味道，你的一切一切。 我仿佛回到了我们在一起的时光。虽是短暂，但是如此的美好。
i haven't been thinking much about Marc lately. maybe that's what they meant by "out of sight, out of mind", and that, surprisingly, works for me. it's been 3 months odd, and the pain has subsided, somehow. for those who're close to me will definitely know he's still not completely outta my mind, but yay, i've been too caught up with things to really go think about it.
untill tonight.
during the courtship days, he entered and disappeared from my life time after time (apparently, he likes playing MIA). i took in his words time after time. it's untill the 3rd disappearance, which is of late, that i decided to disappear from his life as well. we've been completely out of each other's lives for 3 months. and i'm trying to erase him from my life. even though i still talk about him occasionally, i no longer feel that pang of heartache anymore. it's a decision we've made, and so, i can't regret one bit, no?
yes, i don't deny i still can't bring myself to visit places we've been together. i won't deny that it's him that i thought of whenever i saw a grey mitsubishi lancer driving past, which i'll usually check out the license plate to see if it's him. i won't deny that certain songs (you ni zhen hao) still reminds me of him. and like i said, i no longer feel that pang of heartache anymore. it's just.. nostalgia.
no matter what. i'm really thankful to all my dear friends who has made this period of time so much bearable. supportive besties like li'e and tiffany who constantly encourage and keep me company. my favourite chat buddy, eadric, who is crappy but gives great advices. irritating dong who's always available for me to ask to company me for lunch or doing stupid things nearby. my hao xiong di's', han de, martin & co, who always invite me to join them for touring. and a bunch of wonderful colleagues who made my working hours so so so bearable. of cause not forgetting, many other friends who has been really supportive and nice to me all this while. yun, froggie, lee hong, lye hong, etc. for that, i think it'll take me forever to name everyone and everything.
sigh. changes are indeed inevitable. for that, i think i've changed. to the worst or better?
you shall be the judge.
Monday, July 30, 2007
Y Spending, Saving & Investing
at what age do you consider saving and investing your assets as an importance in life? i believe all of us has been taught by parents to save, save and save. living in such an expensive society, how much can you really save each month? how much of the temptation around you can you actually resist? temptation which effectively wipe out our savings most of the time. have you ever really sit down, and plan out your finances? Labels: Inner Intentions
think about it.
have you tried doing a break-down of your salary (or allowances for some of you) for all your expenses? CPF, parents' allowances, bills, insurance, school fees, cosmetics (for the high-maintenance ladies at this age) food & entertainment. do you stick to the monthly break-down or do you "see money, spend money"? whatever your salary or allowance is, plan what are your monthly fixed expenses. be realistic and stick to this plan and do not over spend. maybe, a minimum 10% of pay or allowance must go into savings and another 20% into insurance/investment?
well, i'm 20 going 21 now. and upon reading up a thread in a forum i joined today, i got inspired. what a timely wake-up call for the slight spendthrift soul in me! :P i don't wanna be shallow and be ignorant to all these stuffs anymore. it's high time i do something to my savings, and do a break-down of my salary which i'm gonna follow strictly. once i'm over and done with my driving lessons, i'll have more concentration on my school fees. but man, please give me a pay rise! :(
one endowment policy with medical, illness and death coverage. monthly fixed deposits may allow one to "see no money, spend no money", which hey, works! once you're of eligble age, try investing your savings to investments accounts with diversified portfolios to include equities, bonds and commodities based on your own asset allocation. do consider OCBC's UT, SD and FD/TD plans. in fact, study the rates and consider the higher returns, gurantee on your principal amount and of cause, with lower risks. :) which bank to invest in is definitely up to individual's preference, but i was told Citibank, Singapura Finance, OCBC, Hong Leong Finance and Maybank are offering better rates. shrugs*
sometimes, it's good to read up bank websites, or CPF board's site instead of checking out some useless porn sites or commercial star blogs. it's time to think like a grown up. just like what i've discussed with li'e on MSN this afternoon, that we gotta work hard for our dreams! thanks girl, for sharing my dreams and keeping it a secret. tsk! winks*
so what are you waiting for? quickly get into the momentum now! momentum is powerful, soon you'll be doing it without even having to think. good luck! :)
Friday, July 20, 2007
Y Commercialised Blogging? Steven Lim VS Xiaxue.
i'm neither a fan of Xiaxue nor Steven Lim, but recently everyone seems to be creating a big hoohaa about a recent post of xia xue's (click here to read) regarding the top 7 most disgusting bloggers in Singapore. Labels: Inner Intentions, Whinings/iRant
i seriously think those stuffs are darn lame, yet entertaining in certain ways! especially the video of steven lim's retaliation to xia xue's entry! man, he's really ridiculous and disgusting! but the video totally cracks me up. i couldn't stop laughing at his facial expression, his gestures and words usage! CHICKEN PIE! rofl. and his blog spells thicked-skin to me. OMG.
guys, watch the video and you'll know what i'm talking about. haha!
seriously, blogging has became so commercialised nowadays that people are using it to earn. where's the initial genuine purpose of blogging man?
my blog serves as an outlet for me to rant and rave to anyone who actually gives two hoots about me and my life. it also helps me to track my moods, thoughts and feelings on life, so it's somehow aids my personal growth. and at times, i love to revisit my old posts to understand how i was feeling when i wrote them, and from there i am able to see how i have developed or changed emotionally. i see blogging as something that nurtures the soul. we all have opinions about things, and everyone deserves to have their thoughts heard.
and sometimes, it's better for me to type my feelings out instead of speaking to someone about them, because this way, i can express myself better without having to deal with others judging me. and most importantly, my blog is where my close friends get updated about what's going on in my life always! right girls? :)
BTW, all that thoughts just hit me after going through those so-called star blogs. and so, what is YOUR reason to blog? think about it. :)
wooo, another mrt-hit-woman-and-woman-died case at Clementi this afternoon! Read.
there you go, ead, i've updated my blog, again. hahahaha!
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Y Fleeting Feelings
my biggest enemy in life is not problems. it's problems which do not have solutions attached to it. it leaves you hanging and vulnerable to the situation you're in, and there you find yourself helpless as the predicament unfolds right before you. there's nothing i can do about it to make things better.. and that really puts me in fear sometimes. Labels: Inner Intentions
and so as i sat there, i got so caught up in my own thoughts. nonchalant to the chatters around me. people from different walks of life around me, hollering all sorts of languages/dialects to each other. it's almost queer how the long, streaming hours can sail by so effortlessly, while you struggle to run alongside it. in your ongoing quest of keeping abreast with time you hear and try to shake off its quiet and rhythmic snicker; but as always - the ticking never stops.
the earth is still revolving. the time is still ticking away. why should i let these problems obstruct my life this way, i thought. where had all the strong wills which i had for the past months gone to? this strong pillar in my heart has seemed to collapsed somehow. i need to get that fixed, and make my life be back on track. i gotta stop deceiving myself, and face the reality.
how is it that i could be bursting with optimism one moment, and flushed out with despondency the next? i would like to say this is uncharacteristic, and that what i'm experiencing of late is just my way of responding to present and differing situations.
but then this would bring me to the question of how well i know myself, and frankly speaking? not much. a scary thought indeed. a seed of thought you one day find mysteriously planted in the back of your mind, gradually feeding and growing on the time you spend thinking about it. but as i've found out, brooding doesn't always necessarily give answers, so i'm now drawn to taking things a step at a time, occasionally backtracking a little, and indulging in the passing of cliched statements like "only time will tell" whenever i find myself locked in a loose train of unanswered thoughts.
will my determination falters, again, mid-way? i hope not.
note: thank you, dearest li'e, for being the one whom i can talk to without arming myself with a shield. i don't know why i did that, but trust me, it sure can be absolutely tiring sometimes. but i will walk out this dark abyss once more, and i'll be back to the larling you first knew. hee.
i will miss you no more. (p.s: i kinda... miss my straight hair actually. =x)
ohwells. on a lighter note, i'm going to PAsirRIS tonight. i hope we'll have lots of fun, without the mosquitoes (we're heading to the dengue (blacklisted) hotspot!), that is. tsk!
alright, toodles for now!
Monday, July 02, 2007
Y Casualty of Reality
Labels: Inner Intentions
i've been thinking about this matter, which i've been avoiding, over and over again. finally, i slow down my pace last night and gave it a thought. i gotta stop deceiving myself, thinking it doensn't bother me at all. well, it does.
there is one thing i really wanna do. but i'm afraid of the consequences.
i hate to laugh everything off like i'm really the happy-go-lucky sort.
i hate it when i feel i've no privacy at all.
or probably, i find it hard to share my inner most feelings to anybody right now.
or maybe i'm just escaping from it.
i just want to hide. forget about everything.
don't wanna think about it.
don't wanna find solution to it.
thinking that by indulging in sappy dramas ('cause they make me feel those casts are worse than me) and running out from home will make me forget it.
and hoping everything will disappear into thin air.
how naive of me to think that way.
perhaps that's me. naive and dumb.
right from day one.well, it just so happen that i'm one fateful casualty of this ugly reality.
today is tuesday.
secrets revealed. its no longer a secret now.
it's a pity that we revealed it only today.
things has changed. and we can only let it remain as this way.
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Y Today's just yesterday's tomorrow.
how i wish we could hang out longer just now. why do good times always have to end so fast? just like the weekend. time just whizzes past when you're enjoying yourself. NFS? ohwells. Labels: Family/Friends, Inner Intentions
steamboating with the usuals at Bugis. this is supposed to be our class's 3rd anniversary celebration, but because the full strength wasn't present so we don't consider this is. froggie, li'e, wei liang, yi peng, han de (birthday boy), jason and martin (ma tian tian). 8 of us is enough. :) no pictures during dinner because we were too engrossed in eating. we ate from 8pm to 10ish. yummy! teehee.
some of them left home (or to meet their other half) after dinner. the rest of us walked to Marina Square, with the intentions to bowl but the alleys were fully booked. we ended up doing this right outside the arcade. SNAPS! lol.
p.s: please ignore our ice cream cones please. lol!
wei liang and jason are both enlisting on the 14th july. aww. and we've said to meet up again after their BMT. :)
took 857 home aftermath. surprisingly, there's still buses at that hour - close to 12mn. haha! it was a really enjoyable night, though it was quite a pity that some of them couldn't make it tonight. :S
****
i'm back from the hurdles, with them by my side. i guess i would be stronger. life is nothing without them. "A true friend is the one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.". yes! friends are the most important ingredient in the recipe of life and friendship is a special kind of love. it's like sound health, the value of friendship is seldom known until you lose it. so.. cherish your friends around you. if you treat your friends as they should be, they will become one of the crowd, but if you treat them the way they ought to be treated, they will become an individual. my friends are like the most precious asset i could ever have. :)
side note to tiffy: all the best for your exams. hang in there, and i'm sure things will be better one day. hope to meet up with you soon when you're back home from KL. :)
****
i think my hair's not that curled anymore leh. how? :(
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Y Lust is easy. Love is hard.
Labels: Family/Friends, Inner Intentions
the char boh whom i've known for 3 years plus.
the char boh whom i had small fights with. how childish we were in the past.
the char boh who drives me crazy all the time.
the char boh whom i don't have to bother about how dumb i looked or whatsoever, in front of her.
the char boh i can be disgusting with.
the char boh i can say i'm "digging my nose", "shitting", and whatever disgusting things you can think of, to her.
the char boh i feel totally comfortable being with.
the char boh who shares a fitting room with me.
the char boh who knows what i'm feeling without me saying much.
the char boh who knows me inside out, outside in.
the char boh i call my Bestfriend.
that's li'e for you. :)
the meet up with her this evening was great. dinner and shopping and laughing. ultimate indulgence. really great hanging out with you (and your crazy little sister) just now.
see you on Saturday! and meet up for such chilling again soon aiight.
SIAO EH, are you touched? hahaha.
****
Lust is easy. Love is hard.
infatuation happens all the time.
i'm sure this isn't real. because we've known each other too long.
and we'll be friends for life.
REFRAIN!!!
moreover, i still do think about the times when i'll fall asleep in the Lancer and waking up to his kisses. it's purely just 'thinking about it', and not 'missing it'. we're completely outta each other's lives. though i'm still kinda mad at him, and stuffs, but i'm sure one day, i'll still smile at the memories upon seeing certain things. :)
ohwells. no wonder eadric says i'm an emo person. a stupid bus ride can bring me so much emotion.
ANYHOW. tomorrow's the day of MY meeting at work. haha, so excited.
S P E A K O U T L O U D ! :)
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Y Everything felt like yesterday.
HAPPY PAPA DAY!! Labels: Inner Intentions
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO KIM!
HAPPY BELATED 20TH BIRTHDAY TO JAE (16th june)!!
yesterday ah dong, neth and kengey were at my place the whole day. we played 4 rounds of mahjong till 1.30am, with dinner break in between. it's been months since i had my hands on the tiles, so that explains my lousy games. i lost a whoppin' amount of $18. the 2 guys 'tok' kengey and i, because they both won our moolahs. booo. LOL!
more mahjong please? :)
***
i'm at that point in my life where things are neither good nor bad. it could be better, but it could be worse and i can't look at anything with a pure pessimistic or optimistic point of view. it's that point in life where you just have to forge forward and hope for the best. you keep your fingers crossed in hopes of someday catching that happiness you tried so hard to hold in your grasp. that's the thing about happiness, it is fleeting. like that firefly you try to capture and no matter how many times you waver, try to clasp it in your hands, but it never wants to be kept. keep one foot in front of the other and move along, because someday that firefly will find its way to you...
was back tracking my entries and i realised how much we have grown and changed. it's amazing how time flies and how slow things seem to be forgotten and felt like yesterday yet feels like 100 years away. i'm missing the good old times and the silly things we used to do.
sec sch: chasing one another along the corridor, from toilet to 4m1 to 4m2. pulling pony tail. writing letters. hiding in the toilet. morning breakfast at the coffeeshop before school. being late for school, which we ended up having to run that bloody slope for rounds. having long fringe which in the end got chopped off by mrs tan. fret about Os only few weeks before the actual paper. hanging out at CWP after school. bringing HP to school despite we're not allowed to.
poly: atrium teriyaki sandwiches. mcmuffin breakfast. surfing net and msn in class. skipping lectures. class chalets with w01. night cycling. escape theme park trip with girlies. rushing for assignment datelines. cracking jokes with my friends. rushing to work after school. and our BIGGEST achievement in NP - selling ice cream for our IS assignment and earning profits!!! from planning it, sourcing it to implementing it, we did it all by ourselves!
ya'll know. all that felt like yesterday. 28th june, w01's 2nd anniversary and han de's 19th birthday celebration at Mount Faber felt like last month, and we're actually celebrating our 3rd year and han de's 20th birthday in 2 weeks' time!! look at how this 1 year had passed us by this way!
time flies. and it's already JUNE of 2007! another few more months, and we'll be approaching 2008! don't you think time passes us so quickly, that it's kinda scary?
dreams stashed twice. disappointed and lost hopes twice.
once bitten, twice shy. thrice means i'm really stupid.
so yeah. changed of goals. move on~ oh move on~
that can wait, something's else more important right now. :)
i can't wait for school to start!
i can't wait to get busy all over again!
:)
i'm really touched to be labelled as your lifetime sista!!
you'll be my lifetime bro as well!! :D
yahoooo!
***
right, i'm off to celebrate PAPA day with my family now.
toodles~ :)
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Y Grow and Glow
i haven't been in the best of moods for the past few weeks, but today bestows upon me sunshine smiles and a great deal of light-heartedness. it sure feels awesome after letting out all my emotions last night. even if it feels like talking to a cold hard wall. Labels: Inner Intentions
it feels just like letting out a loud and smelly Fart in somebody's face after eating so much onion for lunch.
i don't deny that i was disappointed, but well, everything happens for a reason. and that, shit happens. and for this case, shit makes me grow! and probably glow, with energy.
:)
***
nothing beats going into an office full of chirpy colleagues.
i'm beginning to love going to work now.
i have wonderful seniors, who is willing to expose me to so many wonderful things.
next up, i'll be exposed to the media real soon. the first step to step into the Marketing industry.
graduation tomorrow.
with so much anticipated fun ahead, what more can i ask for right?
i don't need his love to survive. i've all the Love in the world. right here in my heart. :)
xoxo.
Monday, June 11, 2007
Y Goodbye.
i swear i was totally crazy. i treated you with my heart, both when you were my boyfriend and when you are my friend, and this is what i get. i meant what i said earlier on, and this is it. farewell to you, marcus! you are worse than a jerk! you forced me into this. Labels: Inner Intentions, Nostalgic, Whinings/iRant
everyone who knows me, know i hate having enemies. that is why i don't like hating people. even though wilson treated me like shit too, i never hated him. so why should i hate you? it will only be a waste of my precious time. i'm just mad at you. this anger won't last i know, but still, good bye to you!
right from day one since we knew each other, you appeared to be a fine gentleman and all. you assured me that you are nothing like that jerk, and now you lied. when we're going into our 3rd week, your true colours slowly shows. being the naive me, always think love's like a fairytale and everything can be solved with a little sugar and spice, but hell, i was wrong! 1 month and 19days! we merely started, and we've ended.
you spoilt my being-single-for-18-months record! now i'm gonna start all over again! like, what the heck? BLOODY HELL! GO AWAY, ALL OF YOU JERKS! ALL OF YOU ARE SO CHILDISH CHILDISH, SO CHILDISH AND SO UNMANLY!
to hell with all the FOREVER shits. what ENDLESS LOVE? you promised so much SHIT. you showered with so much HONEY. oh haha, i almost got diabetes! blame it on me for being so STUPID to take it in. you had me on! we are really over! HA HA HA HA. this is such a joke! LAUGH, PEOPLE! LAUGH PLEASE! THIS IS SO SO SO SO SO HILARIOUS!!!!!
SMART-ASS JOANNE IS A DUMB ASS!
HA HA HA!
tell me i'm wrong! because your silence is the only reason to come to this conclusion.
but, know what? i really don't wish to say this. but one day, all of these jerks will get their retribution!!
FUCK. oh wait, what did i just said?
*
**
***
****
*****
******
*******
can i just turn back the freakin' time?
even though i mourned about the lost love between wilson and i for years, but i was HAPPY. because i had wonderful friends at school, at work, at everywhere.
i missed the joy i used to have. i want to have them BACK!
i wanna relive that again. i'm sure i can! because i'm so gonna do that this wednesday!
i missed the times we had in school. grabbing sandwiches from the atrium. walking to class together. talking non-stop with li'e and froggie right under our teacher's nose. rushing assignments. struggling together. staying in school till late. having our da pau takeaways. blasting songs in class (though my laptop's volume always loses out). thumbdrive/hdd songs, movies, and whathaveyou. i missed w01 SO much! i had the best girlfriends in class! best guys classmates anyone can ask for, treating us like real sisters! other than those people of w01, i've made great friends from NP as well. lee hong, yun (tho we're having some problems now, but still.. yay), ben kong, etc.
i missed the times we had working as banquet waitresses too. be it in conrad, pan pac or meritus! i just missed the carefree part being just a part-timer. in conrad, we were disciplined, with a tinge of playfulness. haha! though i hated ramesh, but it was him who made me the VIP server. oh no, it should be vicki. yes, being a VIP server is no biggie, but that made me learnt slightly more being a better waitress. right larling? hee. we definitely missed the times we ate non-stop! i missed the aloe vera dessert, which definitely tasted better than the one wilson made for me. i missed the times when teckson, our favourite barman who seemed to have disappeared into thin air, will hide dishes in the bar fridge area for us to eat after function! oh, and the times we worked in pan pac executive floor, where we'll work and eat, work and eat. as well as meritus, where we served and ate 9 courses! and hide behind doors or curtains, just to avoid serving cocktails! missed all the friends we made in conrad and meritus. jing xuan, uncle kok hwa, brother jimmy, teckson, marhaini, steve oh, jasmine, samantha, lulu, lujia, phoebe, lu hua, nancy, han xue, xiao ming, B'en(meritus), and alright, zhi ling.
and of cause, i missed all my old friends. good thing i'm still in touch with most of them, but hell, i wanna meet up with them too. especially tiffy! it's been a couple of years man. but we're really consistent with our emails. keep the mails going, girl. and i can't wait to meet you up in July. :)
darn, i don't wanna grow up!!!!
wondering why i'm reminiscing all that? because i'm trying to neutralize my emotions. i don't deny i'm upset about what had happened, but well, life goes on. my life is still very colourful, with wonderful people around me. it's something not everyone's blessed with. so i must learn to be contented.
***
i've decided to go ahead with my major decision. thank you, larling, for analysing for me, and supporting me. i know what i wanna do already. :)
ben kong thinks i'm losing faith in relationship. no, i won't. but for the time being, i've better things to think about - my future and my career. hence, to hell with MEN! :) that can wait for now, although i won't give up that dream of marrying young. HAHAHAHAA! but well, things are destined. everything happens for a reason. :)
from tomorrow onwards, i'm gonna wake up thinking about how glad i am to be alive now, and definitely not about how upset it is that our relationship have to fail at this point of time.
LIFE'S A CHOICE! right, eadric? HAHAHA.
i am still happy. i will be. :)
for example: be obsessed with online shopping. that's what li'e and i have been doing today! we are crazy! :x
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Y Big step
i have only less than a week to make up my mind. Labels: Inner Intentions
i don't want to drag on any further. i was once told, human being are very lazy creature. the longer you wait, the lazier you'll get and you'll be too comfortable in your own comfort zone. on the contrary, human being has 'adaptability', so yay, we can adapt to changes. i hope.
that is why, i don't wanna wait till next year. since the opportunity is right smack in front of me, i should grab hold of it, no? i'm doing this for myself, and definitely not proving anything to anyone. it's just.... i'm upset.
i have to give up so many things if i were to take this up.
lots of planning. lots of considerations. lots of stuffs to think about..
it's one big step for me. it's time i really think like a grown up.
thank you for spurring me to do so much. and i really and finally miss you. :(
man, what am i suppose to do? :/
Joanne; twenty-one; 16jan'87
EMAIL ;j_o4nn3@yahoo.com.sg
MSNSPACE ;
my space @ msn
FRIENDSTER
http://friendster.com/joanneeMULTIPLY ;
my photo album @ multiply
Amusing Anecdotes
Announcement
Birthday
Daily Drivel
Emo
Family/Friends
Holiday
Inner Intentions
Jukebox
My Zhu Tao
Nostalgic
Partying
Petty Poetry
PhotoBlog
Random
Reviews/Recommendations
School
Shopping
Snapshots
Uncatagorized
Whinings/iRant
Work
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
Reads
Ain
Amy
Andrea
Benedict (MSL)
Benedict (NP)
Chia Wei
Dan
Desmond
Di Ling
Eadric
Hui Keng
Ivan
Jeffrey
Jing Yi
Jolene
Kimmy
Lee Hong
Li Chung
Lin Hui
Pei Yun
Puay Siang
Qun Bao
Raymond
Saleha
Wei Dong
Wei Li
Wei Liang (MSL)
Xing En
Yi Peng
Yun Ting
Zelia
Zhe Bin