Sunday, September 30, 2007
Y It's time to put everything down..
happy belated 23rd birthday to dong. :)
i think today has been a pretty simple and nice celebration for you right? haha. with me being the "organiser", and yet i don't know many people in LSX, so i had to liaise with Zach to help me gather the rest to meet up and have dinner together this evening.
we decided on Settlers Cafe @ Central. after the visit, i think i still prefer Mind Cafe. haha! there were 12 of us in all (dong, yun, eadric, zach, roy, carol, benji, rank, hui ting. hui san, june and me) and we weren't able to squeeze on the sofa, hence we merged two tables together and split into 2 groups for our games. haha!
tried Game of Life and First Hand, and i had quite alot of fun laughing and screaming. hahahaha. i think that's how you actually get to "mix around" with new friends better? by play board games together. LOL. well, i'll definitely go for more such (board)gaming session in future. haha!
got dong this French Connection t-shirt. and i think it looks pretty vulgar there. LOL.
cutting the "cake". haha!
we did not take any group shots afterall. and later on, we head off to Partyworld @ Shenton Way to sing. had quite a rocking time over there. haha!
we had the big room.
yun and me. muacks.
as usual, yun using my phone to self-take. haha! and that's eadric in the last picture btw.
Labels: Birthday
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Saturday, September 29, 2007
Y T_T
will blog more when i feel better. and hopefully i will, by tonight. since i'm heading out with my friends. damn!
@#$%^!
i'm fine now! :D
Labels: Whinings/iRant
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Friday, September 28, 2007
Y Time Square can't shine as bright as you
TGIF.
it's gonna be a long weekend for me. took half day off today, and full day off for monday (for my TP). and today, i walked many miles under the scorching sun doing so many stuffs. and i'm sooo totally exhausted!
birthday dude, dong, was at YCK when i knocked off, so he called me to eat lunch with him. and since i was heading that way, so i agreed and we had cheapo lunch at NYP. haha! then we walked under the burning sun to SSDC, as i needa renew my PDL. yes, it's that dumb! my PDL's expiring tomorrow, and my TP is on monday. in other words, IF i passed my TP on monday, i'll be spending 25$ for a 2 days PDL which actually can last for 6 months. -_-
waited for sometime at level 3, and the officer told me that i can't renew my PDL at SSDC, and that i've to renew it at Post Office. wah piangz! my instructor had insisted that SSDC can renew loh. waste my time. so, poor birthday dude had to follow me to and fro under the sun. haha, thanks and sorry! we then parted at AMK, where he head off to mug for exams (what a sad birthday for him. waha!), and i was off to school to settle some stuffs.
li'e had wanted to take few hours off from work and join me for some shopping, but in the end, we did not meet afterall. went shopping on my own. yes, i was never a fan of doing things alone, and that includes shopping, but surprisingly, i enjoyed shopping alone very much today. and it has been really fruitful for me and my soul, but not for my pockets. wahaha! had wanted to drop by Grey Vibes to look at the dresses, but damn my feet couldn't take it anymore. head home at 5ish then. and i'm oh-so sleeeeeeeeeeeepy now. zzz.
fairy tales and promises don't exist anymore. i choose to take life in a more practical and superficial way.
alright, more more more more driving practices coming. but, i still feel really unprepared leh. :/
Labels: Daily Drivel
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Thursday, September 27, 2007
Y Parting is part and parcel of life.
sounds clichéd? but it's happening to our lives all the time. i get emotionally attached to people and objects pretty easily, so i hate parting.
i'm so gonna miss my dear neighbour at work so much! it's been a good'ol 7months odd with you at work. the one who made work so bearable for me. the one who taught me loads of things, both at work and off work. the one who always look out for me, and always so helpful to me and everyone else.
i'll definitely miss turning to my left and that familiar friendly face appears. i'll definitely miss chattering with you as and when we felt like it. i'll definitely miss lunching with you. i'll definitely miss learning many many things from you. i'll definitely miss sharing dramas/movies/songs with you. i'll definitely miss buying or drinking the 20cents drinks together. i'll definitely miss having you around to enlighten me about many many things. i'll definitely miss crapping, chatting, giggling, laughing AND working with you! very much!
i know we gonna keep in touch, but still, i'll definitely cherish the remaining 1month. i wish my dear girl all the best in her future endeavours. take care, and i love you lah. muacks. don't cry okie?
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blogging randomly..
lately i got hooked to all the cantonese songs a friend sent me. especially the one on my blog.
application to dong's bday dinner this saturday is closed. :x
thanks kimmy for the enlightening chat last night. :)
3 more days to TP.
don't judge one's character by the outlook.
i miss my girls very very much. li'e, froggie, yun, leehong & lye hong.
i'm very troubled.
i am still very busy lately.
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birthday wishes..
24th: Happy belated birthday, Luhua!
26th: Happy belated birthday, Glen!
27th: Happy birthday, poopie monster fizzy!
28th: Happy birthday, dong!
Labels: Daily Drivel
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Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Y 自欺欺人
就算忍 守得了秘密还不安心
原谅我 不懂得再怎麽扮幸运
原谅我 我顾虑成罪人
毕竟总有测隐 知感情完了
扮未发生 想开口又沉默
想分手 又难受 终於都
欺骗你欺骗我感受
还道歉 说我会补救
怎退後 对你说谎
表演够不够
这次 又再骗你一次
何不狠心一试
太害怕令你变得寂寞
每一次 都装出我好意
担心得我一个 呆坐到六时
别妄想 你都讲过别懒惰
要说清楚 看
我们正对峙懦弱地逃避
了事敷衍都算关注
潇洒点结束不等於自私
分开方可各自开始
不想等是时候
不想拖是时候真
不想欺骗你欺骗我感受
实说我爱你不够想退後
爱到这刻只得责任
不想占有这次
又再骗我一次
何不狠心一试
太害怕害我变得寂寞
我想试始终不敢乱试
担心得你一个呆坐到六时
别妄想你都讲过别懒惰
要说清楚 看
我们正对峙
懦弱地逃避了事
敷衍都算关
注潇洒点结束不等於自私
我为何怕事 没法拖手
这次就要挥手这次
我曾发誓对你好
愿做你好友减 低一点内疚
真心话我跟你无谓再逗留
别妄想你都讲过别懒惰
要说清楚既决定了告辞
别冒昧来电救治请收起你心意
潇洒点结束不等於自私
不必假装血流不止
不要 又再诈骗
不要 情深款款
不要 留下次处置
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Monday, September 24, 2007
Y Wise up now or pay the cost.
i just spent half hour crapping on the phone with the character profiler li'e and i met from the career fair last month. his name is jason, and he called me to tell me the results of the survey we took.
and guess what's the result of my survey?
WAHAHAHA.
jason says, i'm damn damn damn (yes, with that emphasis) suitable to be in the sales line. yeah, i'm pretty interested to do sales (not the kind of retail sales, but more like car agent or property agent), but i never thought i could be so DAMN suitable to be one. because i'm always shy and quiet in front of people. and i've no confidence to hit targets or whatsoever. how can right? haha!
okay, that's not my point actually. and you know what he said about the reason? he said, it's because i'm crappy. okay, i'm owned. -_-" WAHAAHAA!
please remind myself to ask li'e how's her results tomorrow. LOL.
okay, don't mind me ya, because i seriously am amused.
btw, how ah? 1 more week. and i'm damn gan chiong till i lao sai-ed. LOL, no lar. i'm kidding about that.
wheee, going shopping tomorrow! :D
time for bed. nights all!
Labels: Daily Drivel
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Sunday, September 23, 2007
Y 'Cause everywhere I go, there's a love song that reminds me of you.
i had a pretty exciting driving lesson this afternoon! haha. i usually had my lessons around Yishun, but today i got to drive from Yishun all the way to Ubi, as i requested to be able to familiarise my test routes. i think the experience was pretty alright, just that the traffic over there was really heavy. plus there's so many road works over there! an intimidating ride indeed.
i'm kinda worried now. my TP's next week! i hope Martin's tips will come into handy then. i think, if i can pass my TP at Ubi, i'll be a daredevil after that. LOL. lots of luck for me alright? :) :) :)
came home to rest after my lesson, before meeting my friends at Plaza Singapura in the evening. had asked our usual clique out for dinner, but only wei liang, martin, li'e and i were able to make it. had dinner at Ajisen, caught up abit, walked around town, shopped abit, and called it a day at 11ish. it felt wonderful to be able to see my "nan ren" and "ma tian tian". hahaha! and i think wei liang still looked as great with his botak head. :)
it had been a simple yet fulfilling meet up with them, and i can't wait to meet up with all of them more often next time. o yea, li'e and i bumped into Sherla on our way to meet the guys. were just talking about her with Lyehong last weekend, and we saw her again today. haha! :)
pictures! the guys refused to take pictures.. :(
yours truly. :)
i wanna say a BIG THANK YOU for being there during my darkest hour, when the world decided to turn its back on me, you were there to pick up the bits and pieces of me. and remember, i am here for you always. no expiry date ok? =)
Labels: Family/Friends
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Friday, September 21, 2007
Y But I want, want, want to be your love. Want to be your love, for real.
there are many things which aren't as pure and innocent as what everyone sees. i learnt about many many things today. lots of emotions - bad, unfair, unhappy, pissed and confused. i need to talk to somebody and ask for help, but who can i turn to? it seems like everyone around me are having their fair shares of problems already. okay, Ariloulaleelay is online now. and i can't wait to see my brothers&sisters tomorrow evening and "pour my sorrows" to them. ok bye.
on a lighter note,
X-Family. Follow up of KO One. Woooohoooo. Arron Yan!! me loves. :D
have a wonderful weekend.
xoxo.
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Y !@#$%^
now tell me, am i suay or what?
my school orientation falls on the same day as my company's warehouse sale at Expo! first day somemore! and to add on the effect, my exams for term 1 falls on my 21st birthday month! 2 papers, 1 of it on the day which i planned to hold my celebration and the other is after my birthday.
so, what now? -_-
Labels: Whinings/iRant
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Y Tagged by Ivan, again.
You have being tag for this game?
FAVOURITES
1) Colours : black, grey, red, pink, green and white.
2) Food : anything but durian or sushi
3) Song : my favourite song changes all the time
4) Day of the week : friday and saturday
CURRENT
1) Mood : sick
2) Taste: nothing
3) Clothes : tee shirt and boxers
4) time : 4.45pm
5) Surroundings : peaceful; with no one at home and with my music blasting from my Divoom woofer and speakers
6) Thoughts : that i wanna finish this and continue with my last episode of "Why Why Love".
FIRST
1) Best frenz : angela, my pri 1 - 3 best friend, whom i've lost contact after i transferred to ADP in Pri 4.
2) Crush : haha, i still remember his banana head! and his name is Andrew. we kept in touch till Sec sch, and he moved back to Phillipines. LOL
3) Movie : Lion King, with my mom and brother.
4) Lie : i can't remember!
5) Music : ABC
LAST
1) Drink : H20
2) Car ride : Last Sunday. My cousin's lancer.
3) Movie : in cinema? Rush Hour 3. At home? Evan Almighty.
4) Call : Li'e
HAVE YOU EVER??
1) Dated ur best frenz guy : never, and never will.
2) Broke the law: does littering counts? :x
3) Been on tv : ehh, no.
4) Kissed sum1 u dont know : someone i dun know? nope.
5 things you are wearing noow..
1) t-shirt
2) boxers
3) 'inner-beauty'
4) specs
5) -
4 things you have done today
1) sleep in late
2) eat
3) drink
4) watched 'why why love'
5) read
3 things you can hear right now
1) James Blunt's new album
2) my own humming
3) nothing else
2 things you wanna do nw..
1) wash up
2) finish this and continue with my show.
1 thing you will do when you are bored..
1) nua
5 ppl that I TAGGED
1) anybody
2) who
3) is
4) interested
5) .
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P.S: i'm really really hooked to "Fly Me To The Moon" these days. these song brings back so much memories. days working as a banquet waitress, etc etc.. aww.
PPS: to tiffy. i missed the water balloon fights too! and zi wei getting thrown into the sea, and his hp spoilt and his slippers gone! i missed all that too! hang in there. and, i missssssssss u.
Bye, off to the moon. LOL
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Monday, September 17, 2007
Y All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses.
i've ditched my bimbotic curls to a pretty short straight mid-length mane. i've missed my straight hair so so so very much! i had wanted a shorter bob or something, but 'cause of some forced restrictions, i can't have short hair for the time being. this is very sad. but still, i feel my hair now is still short, compared to my previous long long length.
this was the length before i had my curls. and now it's very much shorter. i've no picture of my new hair yet tho. :)
and so, it's farewell to my curls for good. i'm leaving some unwanted memories behind when my hair falls. move on, i tell myself. :)
yup, i think my stylist, Ernest, from Kimage @ Northpoint did a great job to my hair, although this burnt a big hole off my pocket. $215 for this hairdo. ouch. :( and i think i wanna colour my hair. soon.
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what the heck am i doing online at this hour on a Sunday night?! i'm uber sleepy right now, and i dread going to work so so so much. how i wish i can skip work tomorrow and sleep longer, but i've lots of tasks on hand to finish! i seriously need a long break. anyhow, i just got home from The Chevrons. had a pretty awesome night out with my family and relatives. cousin derrick booked the Karaook room and we sang to our fills.
i was never a fan of Beer, but tonight i had a glass. how ah? i find myself getting more of an alcoholic now. this is very bad. took derrick's Lancer home after that. i really adored derrick's ride, as he zhng it till so damn chio! with all the neon lights, dvd player, etc. whoa, we were fascinated! oh, even cousin stanley bought his very own ride, suzuki swift, recently. and my parents were wondering when they could be like my aunt, getting to sit in their kids' ride. well, i'm still working hard towards that. :)
right, as promised - picture
i changed my mind about uploading more pictures, so i'll make do with just one.
i'm too tired to upload everything, so laters.
nighty all! =)
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Sunday, September 16, 2007
Y Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire?
we're supposed to have a class outing tonight, but because of some reasons, we had to postpone it to some other day. instead of meeting the rest of the guys as well, we had a little girls' night out, without our froggie as she had something else on.
down we went to Holland V, where we had a wonderful time. dinner at Tango's with my 2 ladies had been pretty pleasant, and the 3 of us seems to have endless things to catch up on. seems like the days since graduation hadn't been easy for all of us. after dinner, it was dessert time at Cold Rock Ice Creamery, and that was really very fulfilling. yum! :)
since we were already on the streets, and the mood is right, we decided to give Wala Wala Cafe Bar a shot. head to the 2nd floor where the live band (Shirlyn Tan & The Unexpected) was performing. well, i felt that Wala Wala is an excellent chill-out place! terrific live band performance and the enthusiastic crowd is what makes me wanna go back there again and again! left the place after a glass of Margarita and Red wine, and went to catch our last train home.
it had been a pretty simple yet splendid meet-up with you girls. let's do that again sometime soon. :)
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sigh.
my words may sound harsh. i've been through it, and the bitterness is still at the tip of my tongue. raw and fresh. nothing much helps except being optimistic about everything. stop thinking for the other, and start thinking for yourself. our lives doesn't only revolves around MEN, and ONE man. you are right, everyone needs LOVE to feel complete. love comes in many forms, and we can't have full marks for each and every single thing in our life.
you reap what you sow? we put in our 100 in a relationship, and what f-up ending do we get? not even a second chance. why do we have to chase after perfectness when there's bound to have flaws in every single thing in life?
i really want the best for everyone in my life. i want everyone to be happy. but it irks me so when i felt we're not been treated right. i feel angry, in fact. damn.
i feel really mixed up tonight. happy 'cause i got to meet up with my favourite girls and had a terrific girls' night out. upset 'cause everyone doesn't seems to be doing good and that we missed our school days. angry 'cause i feel life is so unfair for the women. i think all MCP should burn in hell!!! argh.
yes, i can tell you how a jerk can this guy or that guy be. but no, i can't deny that i really missed him. and also, i'm still mad at him and myself. mad for doing this to me. why doesnt a 2nd chance exist at all? yes, fcuk all the lies.
life's never fair. and nothing's forever. yes, forever's just a word and time can prove it does exist. but so what if you've all the time in the world? time did not prove it afterall.
don't understand what i'm talking about? then don't guess. shut up and leave. bye.
p.s: pictures will be up tomorrow when i get them.
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Friday, September 14, 2007
Y Fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars.
on my twelveth birthday, i asked myself "why ain't i a grown up yet?" then, on my sixteen birthday, i couldn't wait to enter into the later part of my adolescent years (though part of me was quite relunctant to leave my secondary school days behind). now, i wish that i could turn back time and start everything from scratch again. i want to make things right, but i don't know how to.
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Y Hey there Delilah..
Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true
Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me
Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good
Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame
Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.
thanks for recording this demo for me. appreciate it. :)
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Monday, September 10, 2007
Y Exchange Love
completed!!! time to watch till i drop. MIKE HE, here i come! :D
Labels: Reviews/Recommendations
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Sunday, September 09, 2007
Y ohhh, its what you do to me..
should i attend the seminar this Wednesday or 2 years later? or probably this little interest of mine will fade by then? but it shows a pretty fine prospect to me leh. or maybe there's some hidden adverse circumstances which aren't visible. howw? i can't decide. :(
now i know why they say one tends to have abundant interests when you're still young and fresh in the society. how i wish i've all the time and all the money in the world to accomplish each and every of my interests. but damn, we.just.got.to.be.realistic.and.practical. sometimes.
anyhows, dropped by the World Food Fair 2007 at Suntec Convention this afternoon. i just loved the hot & spicy fishballs! wheee, ate quite alot and i'm still feeling pretty bloated right now. haha! i'm craving for so many food right now. Mac breakfast, cold rock ice cream, buffets, ikea meatball, etc. :(
ahh, there goes the weekend. and it's Monday again tomorrow. i hope this week won't be as busy as the last couple of weeks, which i think is unlikely so. :( okay, after so many weeks, my dear girl has finally send me the long overdue pictures! haha.
Yun's chalet; Cycling at Pasir Ris Park.
my girls.
jing xuan oei~
now i know why they say one tends to have abundant interests when you're still young and fresh in the society. how i wish i've all the time and all the money in the world to accomplish each and every of my interests. but damn, we.just.got.to.be.realistic.and.practical. sometimes.
anyhows, dropped by the World Food Fair 2007 at Suntec Convention this afternoon. i just loved the hot & spicy fishballs! wheee, ate quite alot and i'm still feeling pretty bloated right now. haha! i'm craving for so many food right now. Mac breakfast, cold rock ice cream, buffets, ikea meatball, etc. :(
ahh, there goes the weekend. and it's Monday again tomorrow. i hope this week won't be as busy as the last couple of weeks, which i think is unlikely so. :( okay, after so many weeks, my dear girl has finally send me the long overdue pictures! haha.
Yun's chalet; Cycling at Pasir Ris Park.
my girls.
jing xuan oei~
embrace the world with arms wide open.
poem reciting?
emo jx. and our favourite lovely treeee!
yesterday's.
:)
that's all. laters.
:)
that's all. laters.
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Saturday, September 08, 2007
Y Keeping busy, everyday I know I will be ok..
credits to AromaCookery for the pix on the right.
Chocolat N' Spice Muffins for you? li'e and i travelled all the way to Tanjong Pagar this morning to try these yummylicious muffins. not long after getting our muffins, a loooooong queue was formed outside the shop. hello kitty crazed, bubble tea crazed, donuts crazed, and now, MUFFINS crazed! i'm not really a fan of sweet stuffs, but i personally think the muffins tasted great, albeit way too sweet for me. nonetheless, i felt it's worth the trip there! :D
off to Peninsular Shopping Centre to get our skinnies after that. well, we were totally freaked out by this shop owner in one of the shops. he's practically "forcing" us to purchase the skinnies from him. damn, we quickly fled out of the shop the moment we got the opportunity.
went on to Orchard for more shopping sprees. well, we were just roaming around, wasting our time. we were too worn out by evening, hence we did not go for Cold Rock ice cream afterall. and i'm really sleepy right now.
i'm feeling so mixed up. why must things turn out this way? we were like buddies in the past, and how am i going to face him after the conversation we had last night! i was reminded of the past, and felt really upset by it. sigh, but i felt better after talking to li'e and dong about it. SIGH. i'm sorry, dude...
guess what i'm doing right now? haha. i'm on the phone with li'e, and she's doing some disgusting thing right now. hahaha. time to sing some songs to her.. hahaha!
***
Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid, for a while
Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday I know I will be ok
But I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you
And know I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There’s a life out there for me
am totally in love with this track, which i find myself able to relate to it. darn, i just love tuning to oldies love songs!
alrighty, laters!
went on to Orchard for more shopping sprees. well, we were just roaming around, wasting our time. we were too worn out by evening, hence we did not go for Cold Rock ice cream afterall. and i'm really sleepy right now.
i'm feeling so mixed up. why must things turn out this way? we were like buddies in the past, and how am i going to face him after the conversation we had last night! i was reminded of the past, and felt really upset by it. sigh, but i felt better after talking to li'e and dong about it. SIGH. i'm sorry, dude...
guess what i'm doing right now? haha. i'm on the phone with li'e, and she's doing some disgusting thing right now. hahaha. time to sing some songs to her.. hahaha!
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Knew the signs wasn’t right
I was stupid, for a while
Swept away, by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Catch myself, from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy, everyday I know I will be ok
But I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you
And know I’m
So confused
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never met to be
Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There’s a life out there for me
am totally in love with this track, which i find myself able to relate to it. darn, i just love tuning to oldies love songs!
alrighty, laters!
Labels: Daily Drivel, Jukebox
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Friday, September 07, 2007
Y One sensitive post.
now what? cat fight? or blog fight?
this is a sensitive post, so please exit if you are one who can't take sensitiveness. and some of you sensitive people out there, may just think, "oh, it's just another byebye-friend ranting of joanne's". i've hesistated quite awhile before deciding to voice out. neither do i want any
note: the following are blogged based on what my instincts told me who/what those sensitiveness are arrowed at, so i repeat, scram if you know you won't like what i'm going to say.
so you call that flaunting how well "i" can manage my money? did i mentioned it was you whom i wanna slap my money with? no, i did not. there's no reason for me to explain whoever or whatever reason i'm writing that for. but you cannot dismiss the possibility that all that were for my self-consolation for not
i don't care whatever 'coincidence' you were talking about, but before you say or do anything, can you recall what was 'it' you called my friend and potato back then? OR, what you commented then? 马后炮 , that's what i'd call that as! if you don't already know, i won't hurl anything rude without a reason! be glad i didn't say it right at your face, cause i really can't think of a good reason for me to do so.
if you want to know things about me, ask it straight out from my mouth, and not through some innocent third party. i hate it when people goes around asking, "what's wrong with jo ar?", "what is her blog talking about ar?", etc. you want to know, you ask me! i will tell you if i find a need to.
yes, i swear i treated you as my true friend all these years. if i don't care, i won't bother surprising you on your 18th birthday that way. i won't bother to keep in touch with you all these years. i was truly grateful and touched when you planned and organised a fantastic 20th birthday celebration for me. till today, it's still etched in my heart. and i really did wanted to be nice on your 20th. i tried my best, and it was clearly written on your face that night that you weren't exactly happy about our present or celebration. well, for that, it was indeed unlike any decent celebration. no, i did not forget how you helped me through my breakup with W - how you accompanied me while i waited at W's house, how you helped me deliver the present to M. and i meant it when i said we'll be friends forever. yes, we'll still be till we get over these 'internal inferno' between us.
let me tell you now. my attitude towards you changed because of the hurtful (or maybe unintentional) stuffs you and your mom said to my mom. try thinking harder about it. yay, it may be unintentional, but come to think of it, things like such should be kept between family or close friends. i trusted you, therefore i told you. little did i expect you'll use that and arrow my parents! alright, nevermind. there are just too many things (like what you chose to do) which i was really unhappy about, and still, i decided not to say it out. because i know, if i were to spell everything out from A to Z, then that's it.
i was once taught to ignore and farewell to 'friends' i dislike, like how he treated his friends, which made him ended up with zilch friends. but i was also taught to Yin2 Shui3 Shi1 Yuan2. so yay.
alright, i don't know what's the consequences after i click 'Publish', but yay, i've had my say. :)
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anyhows. it's the WEEKEND!! i've a pretty fine weekend all planned out. oh please tell me we ARE going to have cold rock ice cream tomorrow! :D sigh, days at work without my lovely neighbour is so boring! 'sibeh boliaoz' ah! come back soon, girl!! hahaha, muacks.
time to chill with a BOOK.
have a lovely weekend ya'll. =)
ps: i think, without all the factors, i would have fallen for you already... because, i'm still in love with my ex. sings*
Labels: Whinings/iRant
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Thursday, September 06, 2007
Y My Cherie Amour.
Ex (Yeah)
Ex (Kelly and Yung Texxus)
Ex (Yeah)
[Kelly Rowland]
I never thought that we would break up for the better
Should've never made the promises to each other
So many things I should've said that you didn't know
Coming in from a past with a heavy load
But I knew that you were a good man
Give me love, you were faithful - It showed on my hand
I know there are questions in your mind you don't understand
Through the words of this song, I wanna answer them
Honesty (Check)
Conversation (Check)
A shoulder I can lean on anytime I'm feeling stressed (Check)
Good loving (Yes)
The perfect soldier (Yes)
Was about to say "I do," when I know it wasn't meant
So I
Search in my mind, trying to figure it out
And thought I was happy but I'm having some doubts
Think I found the answer and I know I must confess
I'm still in love with my ex
And I wasn't ready when I said that I loved you
And in my heart, I know that I gotta tell you
I shouldn't have gone from a situation to the next
I'm still in love with my ex
[Kelly Rowland]
Every moment that I stayed, I dug a deeper hole
I was with you but my heart wouldn't let him go
All my family told me, "Kelly he's the one for you"
I know your family love me and I love them too
(I'm so sorry) I'm so sorry for the pain I put you through
But you shouldn't have to suffer cause I'm confused
So much for looking forward to future plans
Lost the love of my life and I lost a friend
Good to me (Yes)
Security (Yes)
You were all the things I wanted
Checking everything (Check, check)
You were comforting (Yes)
Romantic man (Yes)
How could I have said "I do," when I knew it wasn't meant
So I
Search in my mind, trying to figure it out
And thought I was happy but I'm having some doubts
Think I found the answer and I know I must confess
I'm still in love with my ex
And I wasn't ready when I said that I loved you
And in my heart, I know that I gotta tell you
I shouldn't have gone from a situation to the next
I'm still in love with my ex
[Kelly (Yung Texxus)]
Silence
(I don't know why you're telling me all this now)
I've gotta own this
I've gotta own this game
(Yeah, I ain't the one you chose)
I can't believe I'm saying this..
Saying sorry is the hardest part
(Yeah.. aye, it's Yung Texxus)
[Yung Texxus]
From make-up's to break-up's
His and her Jacob's
Mi amore got issues galore, sure
We was all good-good, and it was all good-good
Now I'm reading old love letters (Damn)
My homies looking at me like, "You know better"
But I'm reminiscing so I had to consider
Did she go hard for me? (Yes)
Take a charge for me? (Yes)
Turn her head when them other hoes was callin' me? (Yes)
I can't lie, when she left she took a part of me
Part of me want her back but part of me can't pardon she (Nope)
Call it foolish pride but shit, who am I?
I made my mistakes, tossed my dirt to the side
Er'time we meet I see the hurt in her eyes
Cause I'm an ex-friend, ex-homey, ex-lover
So stop the phone calls, voicemails, etc.
Shawty keep the ring, forget the day I ever met ya
Search in my mind, trying to figure it out
And thought I was happy but I'm having some doubts
Think I found the answer and I know I must confess
I'm still in love with my ex
And I wasn't ready when I said that I loved you
And in my heart, I know that I gotta tell you
I shouldn't have gone from a situation to the next
I'm still in love with my ex
Ex
Ex
Ex (Ex)
Labels: Jukebox
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Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Y You were my everything, and I really miss you..
i hate it when a birdie pooped on me.
e u r g h .
Labels: Whinings/iRant
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Y I'm just out to find the better part of me..
sometimes, i wonder if i've never met Mr B, will i still be walking the painful route? or, if Mr C and i did ended up together afterall, will it be a happily ever after story and that Mr B will never get to exist in my life and cause me so much misery at all?
oh wells, everything happens for a reason. same goes to the 'everything' happening in my life. maybe that's my destiny, and i gotta live with it. :) i hope my dearest friend will hang in there. i'm here for you always, just like you've been there for me all these years. you know i've always love you. heehee. :)
"sibeh boliaoz" ah. i should be sleeping already, but darn the file transfer still crawling like a slow pork. zzz. i'm craving for some cold rock ice cream now! :(
i've decided to give Luo Zhi Xiang's concert a miss. it's not because i can't afford the tickets. i can slap you with my money and jolly well buy the $168 tickets, but know what? i'll rather spend these money on more driving lessons, or more investments, or treat my folks to International Buffets at Melt (which i'm dying to try), or, as quoted by this guy, use the money and buy a better present for him. haha! okay, i do enjoy listening to LZX's songs and watching his dance clips, which i think i can buy/you-know-what his concert DVDs (i know the feeling is different, but RAIN's concert the other time was enough for me to 'feel' it), but definitely not to the extent that i wanna go upclose and personal with him or to kiss and hug him. moreover, 1st Dec is a Saturday which i think i might have lessons. so yay, i think kim and i has made a wise choise. teehee. :)
Time to kick off your shoes, take a break, crank the tunes, dance and shake! Light the candles, cut the cake! Make it a day thats simply great! Happy 25th Birthday, Mr Policeman... :)
Labels: random
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Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Y And now that I'm strong I have figured out, how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
the seconds seems to be ticking away unknowingly day by day. and guess what? in another week or so, my p-period with the company will come to an end! 6 months just whizzes pass me this way, and frankly, i really enjoy working over here. of cause, there's bound to be one or two minus points. but for my case, having wonderful colleagues around is enough to cover up the minus. i look forward to more joy ahead. :D
look, i even have colleague who online shopped and shared the overseas shipping cost with me. the above is what i've purchased, and it arrived in less than 2 weeks! from ordering to receiving it, it only took us 1week odd! thanks girl, for ordering and 'delivering' this for me. hee. :)
so what have i been up to of late? still as busy and lazy as ever. i'm becoming a procrastinator over the weeks. been wanting to to so many things, and yet i've been finding excuses for myself to delay it. this is bad. this is really bad. haha!
TP's in less than a month, and i've been booking more and more driving lessons. everything's pretty smooth, 'cept that i'm feeling a teeny-bit stressed after hearing a good friend of mine failed his TP few weeks ago. from my knowledge, he's a pretty steady driver so far, just that he was unlucky enough to meet with a tester who hardly passes Private candidates, so he flunked it with 22 demerit points. :( ah wells, i'll just try my utmost best during my TP and hope for the best. haha!
movies which i've watched so far. these were pretty good! go catch them, since i think they're still new at the Cinemas. teehee. :)
BTW. if you're feeling bored to the core, do check out SibehSian's blog. it's super entertaining, albeit lame. LOL! alrighty, i'm off for lunch. won't be in the office for tomorrow, as i'm involved in this mini book sale at the SCDF (Ubi) bazaar. i hope it'll be fun. i think it'll be lah? since it's gonna be out of the norm.... okay, maybe not. haha!
tata!
(p.s: anybody's going for Luo Zhi Xiang's concert on 1st Dec? email me if you are.)
TP's in less than a month, and i've been booking more and more driving lessons. everything's pretty smooth, 'cept that i'm feeling a teeny-bit stressed after hearing a good friend of mine failed his TP few weeks ago. from my knowledge, he's a pretty steady driver so far, just that he was unlucky enough to meet with a tester who hardly passes Private candidates, so he flunked it with 22 demerit points. :( ah wells, i'll just try my utmost best during my TP and hope for the best. haha!
movies which i've watched so far. these were pretty good! go catch them, since i think they're still new at the Cinemas. teehee. :)
BTW. if you're feeling bored to the core, do check out SibehSian's blog. it's super entertaining, albeit lame. LOL! alrighty, i'm off for lunch. won't be in the office for tomorrow, as i'm involved in this mini book sale at the SCDF (Ubi) bazaar. i hope it'll be fun. i think it'll be lah? since it's gonna be out of the norm.... okay, maybe not. haha!
tata!
(p.s: anybody's going for Luo Zhi Xiang's concert on 1st Dec? email me if you are.)
Labels: Daily Drivel
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Sunday, September 02, 2007
Y I've been crying for so long, fighting tears just to carry on, but now, but now, it's gone away~~
i've had a wonderful Saturday, so how was yours, peeps? =)
made plans to Comex 2007 with a bunch of good pals (han de, jian wen and yun) today. the guys had cravings for some Botak Jones, hence i travelled all the way to Clementi to meet them for it. yes, i know there's one at AMK as well, but well, since i'm the only NORTH person so i guess i had to be the one making sacrifices, no? LOL.
after lunch, we took 106 to City Hall. oh BTW, i think i'm hooked to yun's Nintendo DSLite already! HOW? please stop me if i ever say i wanna buy one for myself one day, because i'm sure some of you know i damn 三分钟热度, so it's a big NO-NO for me to buy such gadget. so remember to stop me okie? :x
shopped around Raffles City awhile, as Han De wants to get something from MPH Bookstore. haha! when we reached the Comex Show, it was already 3pm. oh boy, the fair seems to be so much bigger than the previous ones, with wider walkways and many more exhibits. the 4 of us stayed focused to our target buys (external HDD, speakers & mouse) and began checking out booths are booths comparing prices. basically, all i have to do was to follow and pay, because jian wen was the one helping us to enquire and compare prices of the different brands. spent 3 hours roaming about, and i got myself a 160GB 2.5" Samsung (IDE) external HDD and some new supplies of Imation CD-R. woooohooo, great buys! =)
after we're done with the fair, yun and i had the most insane night ever. we walked so many wasted kilometres and spent some unnecessary moolahs! alright, here goes our story..
Initial Plan 1: Kbox Buffet; Failed.
Reason: $32 Per Pax. 6pm - 9pm. totally not worth it.
Initial Plan 2: Oscar's Dinner Buffet at Conrad; Failed.
Reason: $55++ Per Pax (about $67 Nett). Too expensive, for food which was said to be not that nice.
Initial Plan 3: Ellenborough Market Cafe's Dinner Buffet at Swissotel Merchant Court; Failed.
Reason: Full house. 'nuff said. (we cabbed from Conrad to Merchant court btw. -_-)
and, FINALLY.
we took the train to Holland V, which we were pretty sure there's bound to be SOMETHING for us to eat. haha! and i think we made a very wise choice to Holland V. the streets are filled with such a chilled-out vibe you could not get anywhere else. today, we had chinese cuisine at Crystal Jade Kitchen, which was pretty much a disappointment to me. but, i'm very determined to go back there to try out the rest of the restaurants. and yes, i'm still dying to go WALA WALA! *tugs Eadric korkor's shirt* let's go? LOL! :P
after which, we had our delectable ice cream dessert at Cold Rock Ice Creamery! Cold Rock originated from Australia and opened its first outlet right here in Holland! if you thought IceKimo (Sin Ming Road) was good, this is way better! here you get to choose your choice of ice cream and there's no limit to the mix-ins of your choice! (mix-ins are $1 each). i had Strawberry ice cream with mini m&m and marshmellow mixed. nice like anything! im definitely going back more often, and i simply must try everything! tsk.
hanged out in Cold Rock for quite awhile, chit-chatting with Yun about life and everything. it's been great hanging out this way with ya girl. let's head down to Holland V more often in future! BUT, how come there's no direct buses from Holland V to the north?! that's the reason why i had to resort to take a cab home just now. :P
lastly, something you might dread looking at - our faces. all taken outside Conrad, while waiting for a cab. :x
yun thinks she looks cute in this pix. what do you think? LOL
:)
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each time the train passes by that rows of blue flats, my natural reaction was to turn and look to that direction and le heart filled with melancholy. maybe that's the reason why i've not stepped into that area for months... :(
我始终变得 不多愁善感
回忆还像心跳 那么难忘
拥抱的热 还留在我们的身上
缘分却不能反抗
爱人不变朋友实在 太难
希望离别能让 以后
更快乐 更幸福 更美满
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