Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Y ugly beings.
first of all, happy 20th birthday, wo de NAN REN!!! okay, that sounds wrong, but i call him nan ren and he calls me nu ren, so that makes him my nan ren? okay nevermind. i was refering to wei liang. my classmate. not the other one. yay, happy birthday! lol.
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sigh. emo.. =(
i feel really awful. and thoughtful.
i am not gonna deny this. i still have this heartwrenching feeling whenever wilson's name was mentioned. it's just so difficult to erase this part of my life entirely. i feel weird when samantha told me she saw wilson holding hand with his new girlfriend, marie, at a mall. i knew about his new relationship long ago, and i was truly happy that he's doing fine and is happy. holding hands was nothing unusual, but it's his name that was mentioned, again, that stirs up this emotion within me.
why can't i just get this over with?
why can't i just stop looking at his friendster profile? even tho' there hasn't been any changes since his fake marriage at all. the fake wedding pictures, wedding rings, and etc, are still there.
his face seems vivid to me now, but his name kept resounding in my head. over and over again.
why can't i just erase him off my mind? dang.
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ever since what happened between mr policeman and me 2months back, i came to realise many things. and i am glad that had taught me well, if not history may happen again. i used to despise the way i was treated by him so much that i almost blacklisted him. it was until i came to my senses one day, that i knew that things weren't that bad afterall. at least, we're still friends and i'm able to give him my blessings and wishes on his birthday, easily.
because of him, i learnt that sweet talks are bullshit. i don't buy that anymore.
even if you say you gonna bring the stars down from the skies for me, i will still snort at you and think it's shit.
even if you say you gonna serenade to me, i will still thank you and say don't promise.
even if you say how promising the future can be, i will still tell you to face reality.
don't act like you cared, if you don't.
because i'll look down on you even more.
and thankfully, humpty dumpty hadn't had a great fall this time round.
and i hate people ending a conversation halfway without having minimum manner of informing me. what an abrupt exit! boo.
what can i say? human beings can be SO ugly.
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The Lady
Joanne; twenty-one; 16jan'87
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