Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Y period.
Happy 22nd birthday, Glen!! and i'm sorry for cancelling the cycling trip. =)
yup, the cycling trip has been postponed to next week due to low response of participants, as told by wei liang. haha!
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when i cared, what you treated my words as? i tried to help you, but you never helped yourself. maybe you did. for once perhaps? then you'll be back to square one aftermath. i'm sorry but i can't be like everyone else spoiling you and giving in to you. i have my own life to lead. you have yours too. you said human has got limited tolerance. no doubt about that. i can't tolerate all your irresponsible doings. i can remind you once, remind you twice, but i can't remind you forever. same goes to people around you. they have their own lives to lead. you gotta depend on yourself, and stop whining like a kid! act like your age will ya.
fyi, i'm saying all these doesn't mean only you have the flaws and i'm flawless. i'm not perfect either. yes, i have attitude problem too. i don't deny that. who doesn't have? you tell me. we can't see our own flaws, unless reminded by people around us, who are able to see things clearer than ourselves.
have you ever think about why the superiors of the few workplaces you went to always like to find faults in you? why would they wanna make things difficult to you? and this is the last thing i'm gonna mention, but i really want to now. i know you hated wilson to the core, and at first sight, he disliked you too. why on earth would he even dislike you even when he hadn't even spoken to you? why out of ge jing and you who were nibbling food at the back together, he only video and report you and not gejing? why dalland won't pick on everyone else but you? why? i believed you have questioned yourself those before. but have you gotten the answer? no? then ask yourself again.
what happened between us on sunday night was just one very basic example. ya, i understand that you have your own ways of expressing yourself. there isn't much people i'd really share my heart affairs with. it's countable, and you're one of them. it just so happen that night i felt like talking to "somebody", and that was when i striked off the convo by showing you the link, and what did i get from you? "show me that for what?". how very sweet of you. i know you hated him, but can't you like for one second treat that guy as someone your bestfriend still cared about instead of someone you hated to the core? ya, maybe like you said, by doing that, was because you wanna me stop thinking about him. i mean, come on, at least i'm not like the past anymore, clinging on to him and never wanna let go. maybe now i appear to you as i am, but i think you're wrong. i'm just clinging on to the memories. and i wanted to share with you, and this is what you gave me. yeah, show you for what? show you because i asked for it ya? thank you for bruising me.
oh yay. and so what if you said sorry to me first? i appreciate you for taking the efforts to give in to me. but i seriously don't need that. and FYI, i never think i'm not at fault. so don't assume. suddenly msn me saying "whoa, jon!!" while watching SG idols. oh man, i can't be like you and pretend nothing has happened. you acted way too normal, which appeared to me as fake. i ignored your messages doesn't mean whatever you think i meant, its just simply because i can't pretend nothing has happened.
people were telling me whatever you said is in the fit of pique. however, i wished that whatever you say, please think before making any statements. yeah, i don't treasure this friendship. i was the one who ruined this friendship. yeah, and i don't give a shit! think and say whatever you want. i'm washing my hands off this matter already. period. =)
btw. it's you who can't wait for the matter to be resolved. i've talked to 'our friend' already, and things appeared to me that it'll be resolved tomorrow or so, but i seriously doubt so now. and yay. post whatever you want in the forum or your blog. go ahead and type out my BIG name in your blog and say i'm short or i've small nehneh or whatever you want! look down on me or blacklist me? go ahead. i'm well-armored already. and that's ever since the day i chose to make peace with the girl you once held grudges against. =)
and yes, i AM unreasonable. =)
P/S: thank you for thinking i'm god/perfect. i'm flattered. =)
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