Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Y ironies should just burn in hell.
sickening cough.
school was pretty alright today, 'cept that the weather was freaking humid, which makes us felt pretty lethargic the whole day. walked to class together with li'e and wei liang in the morning, and froggie came by shortly after. froggie, wei liang and i walked into MWS class just in time to mark our attendance without being marked late, as teacher wasn't around at that time. we were pretty late at that time tho. haha! did tutorials for 1 hour, before we were given CT revision during the last 2 hours. wei liang and i ended up chatting, and got nagged by our teacher a lil. wells, i'm surprised that wei liang will actually ask me for advices about girls. i'm also surprised by what he did, which i find it's so not him lah. ohwells.
had lunch with my girlies at canteen 2 aftermath. and 1 hour later, froggie and i had MBA revision, which anand practically told us the questions that's gonna come out! hahahaha. anand totally rocks my socks! we were released early, so we went into the empty classroom li'e and the rest were at, and we fooled around. "catching up", you see. =D at 2pm, i had QLA lecture, which "my father" (the tutor whom i feel got my dad's wei dao lah) gave back our quiz results. HAHAHA! i passed! i thought i'm gonna flunk badly, because i really didn't study for it. but who knows, i actually scored 50% just nice. hahaha! wells, i'm sure if i studied the theory part, i'll be able to score. shall work doubly hard for CT then. =D
were released 20 minutes later, and i went to get yogort ice cream before going on. and guess what? I SAW COLIN IN THE ATRIUM!!!! you know colin? from http://www.colinandkero.blogspot.com ? OMG! he's reeaally cute in person lah. some guys walked past him, and actually commented something about gays-fucking out loud. that's really very bad of them loh. OMG. colin's really very cute man. too bad, i'm not a boy. OH WHY? ):
right, went straight back home after that.
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everyone's talking about Singapore Idol now.
because of work, tonight will be the first time i'm watching for this season. i'm pretty anxious to know who's gonna be the SG idol this time round. any good looking ones? hahaha!
i don't watch project superstar, campus superstar, superband and whatnot, because i only fancy watching Singapore idol, or occasionally, American idol. original.
i'm looking forward... ^^
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hmm. i feel thoughtful today.
especially during my bus trips to school and back home.
because i reminisced.
about the 2 that i loved most.
back in 2003, i met jae. how we hung out in one big groups at sentosa and round the ice-skating rink. from ice skating to roller blading, we had so much fun together. we spent our first christmas apart with him in malaysia and i'm stuck in singapore. it was torturous. until NYE, then we got to celebrate together. watching the pretty pretty fireworks under the dark dark night skies together. it was so like the scenes in FF8 MV. that explains why i am so in love with FF8. aww.
it was until very much longer, then we were officially together in 2004. we went through many many ups and downs, and even faced the shitty release of O levels results together. i think because of that, things started to change. he got into a JC and me, polytechnic. busy schedules of his, plus the distance of ours, made us grew apart. and thus, we split up. we kept in contact even till today. in between, we had lots of dramas and till date, we're best friends, who talked shits on MSN once in awhile. haha, i'm glad to be able to keep such a friendship going on. and now, he's in a loving relationship with michelle, which i reckon will really last. and i still think jae looks pretty cute with his hair already shaved for army! teehee.
and i'll never forget the way he looked when he's holding/playing with his saxophone. never..
jae's 19th birthday is nearing. hmm.
and also, wilson. sighs* i always had this heart wrenching feeling each time he came to my mind. i always wonder why can't we keep the similar kind of contact as jae and i? why must he distant himself from me so much, like i've never existed in his life before? the thought of it really hurts me like a bitch man.
i teared whenever i remembered how happy i was a year back, and how heartbroken i am today. knowing him and being with him, was something so unexpected. when i first saw him at work during my second day at conrad, i had found him pretty decent looking. i was attracted to him almost instantly, that he soon became the reason i go to work. together with my girls, we named him "mr eyecandy". (fyi, we named almost every black-jackets in conrad back then). i've always thought he's just gonna be a crush, and that's it, nothing's gonna sparked between us. i swear i really did felt that way.
until...
the day i sent li'e off to the States at the airport. i was surfing the internet in the cafe and saw his message for me on friendster. he found, messaged and added me. that was when we began talking, via both the msn and phone. we met up a couple of times, alone and with friends. and on our first date, he brought me to movies and we dined at some classy restaurant in Marina Square. he melted my heart the first time when he sliced my chicken chop for me....
we became closer, and finally, we were together on 17may2005. everything was very sweet and perfect between us. everyday felt like we had known each other forever, as there's never a barrier between us. we were totally care freely in love with each other. we became serious with each other, and had "met our parents". it wasn't any sorts of formal meeting lah, just casual dining at my place and stuffs.
and we had our first overseas trip together with froggie and zhi yong. although we didn't go any further than malaysia, but to me, it's my first time going out of singapore with my boyfriend. so that has been very remarkable. our relationship became closer and stronger (sweeter and more affectionate too), until one terrible fight that took place, which resulted in the break-up in october. 5 months, tho' short but the memories will forever be etched in my heart. never be forgotten..
and today, SIGHS. shan't mention much, as i'm deeply upset about the way we are now. but still, i sincerely hope that now that we won't be seeing each other at work at all anymore, we'll still be able to say HI to each other upon crossing paths on the streets.
i wish you all the best.
and i really mean it.
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we love to live.
we live to love.
but why love when we'll all end up hurting? and couples end up splitting up?
nothing is forever in life.
then why live and suffer?
we sleep to wake.
we wake to sleep.
then why live?
we live to die.
and when we're at the brink of death, we're dying to live.
why study and work so hard when we'll all die anyway?
don't cha think ironies should just burn in hell?
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i'm here without you baby.
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
i'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight, it's only you and me..
P/S: i've got 2 viddys to share. taken on zhiyong's birthday. crapness..
stay tuned!
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