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Saturday, December 17, 2005

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Y is it possible to put my tears into words?

is it possible to put my tears into words? to turn morose droplets into bitter verbs? sighs*

tonight, i just feel like crying my heart out all over again. why? because i went to the ever so familiar place, and came home by the ever so familiar route again. everything just flashed back through my head. the stinging pain in my heart resounding. ouch* don't worry, i'm okay. i'm really okay. i ought to be okay. just a moment of melancholy, that's all.

work was okay today. had dinner with li'e and zhe bin in the canteen today. haha, i feel weird seeing zhe bin in our banquet uniforms. then the ring tattoo on his finger of his, he gotta plaster it to cover it just 'cause of work. haha! lol, what's more weird was that his name tag is 'nicholas'. hmm, that's his christian name btw. he didn't used in class previously was because of neeky. he should have used it man, so that in our class we'll have joanneS and nicholasS. haha! riight..

went to the ballroom at 6pm. passed him the letters that were sent to my place few days back. did some miscelleneous stuffs for awhile and then we had briefing by ramesh. he assigned us our tables. and i was assigned to table 16, and my partner was supposed to be may, and was swapped to tini aftermath. tini did the 'runner' job of cause. yay. oh ya btw, today i wore my new shoes and it rocks totally can. i can jump and run with it comfortably. wahaha! =D alright, was ushering at the stairs during cocktail and i felt super uber bored alright. he did came and talk to me regarding the letters, and blahblah. then zhebin and zhiling were serving cocktail, so i tried to make them entertain me by walking nearer so we can talk. but not many times lah, 'cause wilson's in-charge of cocktail.

door opens at about 8pm, and i wasn't allowed to go in yet mah. then steven came to me and passed me 50bucks to help him buy ciggarettes at the gift shop downstairs. haha, my first time going into the gift shop. haha. the cashier though i was helping a guest to buy it, then he gave me some conrad matchsticks. steven asked me to keep it, and so i gave that to my brother. lol. went back to the ballroom aftermath. dinner began and everything went smooth. zhi ling's side station was right in front of me, and he kept helping me that i felt paiseh. when he's done with his portioning, he didn't help aunty wendy (his partner) to serve, but helped me serve mine. ohwells. :/ OH, jing xuan came and see li'e and i after she finished work at exec. floor. she passed us the gifts she bought for us. it's a sweet lil keychain. teehee, so long didn't see her already. missed her lah. =D

dinner then ended at 11ish. did abit clearing and stuffs, then at 12am, first batch staffs went home. i didn't wanted to stay at first, and had stood at the 'dowan OT' side, but ramesh chose me and asked me to OT. so yay, i stayed behind with nancy. zhe bin was helping wilson with the salon areas turning over, and li'e had went off. oh, zhe bin thinks wilson is one of the very few nice blackjackets around. ohwells. and ya, that damn ramesh kept teasing about zhi ling and i. whatever he said is NOTHING TRUE! argh. anyhows. during the 1hour OT, nancy and i are actually getting easy money. haha, all we did were basically sitting down to polish glass show plates. haha! while polishing, we chatted. about his god-bro, whom is you-know who. yay, she actually knew many things then we talked alot. haha, she told me dirty things as well. haha, i love that girl lah. she actually knows me quite well, even though we hardly get to have a heart-to-heart talk like today. muacks. (:

at 1am, steve let us off. nancy and i went to change, before signing out. went to the canteen to grab a quick bite, before taking the transport home. today the van didn't take me, so i had to take cab. guess what? i took the same cab as you-know-who and another guy. when i heard about that, my heart skipped quite a few beats. the uncle sent the other guy off at selegie first, then him at sin ming road, and i was the last. when there were only the 2 of us on the cab, it's total silence till he gets off, we said bye. what makes things worst was that, the radio was playing sad songs like "you're beautiful" and "i'll never get over you getting over me". argh! all these explains my second paragraph earlier on. sigh, that familiar area. what upsets me most, is the date today. 17th december. our supposely 7th months. ohwells, why am i still thinking about all these monthversary? i don't know. i just felt like crying after he alights. T_T

zhi ling, li'e and nnp were smsing with me on my way home. i was talking to them about everything. i felt really sorry to zhi ling somehow. ohwells, nevermind :/ it's never easy to let go of someone so dear to you. really.

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